My so called life...

stinkelly @ 2004-12-08T22:12:00

2004-12-09T03:16:48Z

Watching Cruel Intentions at Apt. 4. Time passes so fast. Thats it. I'm supposed to study but I can't because I lost my notebook. Hopefully I'll be able to get it done tomorrow.

stinkelly @ 2004-12-01T06:19:00

2004-12-01T11:20:08Z

I love my new cell phone.

stinkelly @ 2004-11-27T22:48:00

2004-11-28T03:50:59Z

I saw Lauren tonight. It was nice. I saw almost everyone I wanted to see over this break. Except one person. One person that I wish I could tell how I felt but I can't because I know there response would be ridiculous and maybe even mean because they have become selfish and don't care about anyone's life but their own. You know who you are.

p.s. It isn't Richard.

I love my brother Jeff he is so amazing. I'm hanging out with him in a lil bit! Yeah!

Hmmm....

2004-09-29T15:52:07Z

Well I am attempting to study right now and its going pretty well. I have a quiz today on Fracne during the First world war and the period in between that war and the second world war. Interesting hey? Ummmmmm no. I think I want to change my major to fashion or something shallow so I don't have to think. Is that bad? I'm not a shallow person I just want to be able to do something fun with my life not so serious all the time. War is depressing and I'm sick of studying it year after year. This class isn't that bad I'm just bitching for no reason. At any rate, today is a good day so far nothing negative has happened. I want to go running after my poly sci class so I think I shall. I have three hours in between that class and my spanish class which I either sleep or work out homework rarely comesinto the equation. Oops. I did really bad on my comm test maybe I should have studied more but then again like half the class did horribly. I think I have carpel tunnel or arthritis my joints always hurt. Its probably from typing and writing so much. Okay this entry is really boring. Sorry gang.
Study Study Study.
Peace Out people.
Love always,
K.R.M

Alrighty

2004-09-27T21:19:50Z

I need to buckle down and get serious about two things in my life right now. School and fitness. its not even funny I need to start studying my ass off or else I think I will be wasting a very pricey education. i do well in some classes but poorly in others. i am soooo horrible at multiple choice questions. i jus don't understand the concept of one right answer. Grr... Okay so thats my goal to do better on mulitiple choice questions. plus chelsea and I were supposed to work out today but she lost her i.d. I should have gone without her but then i just took a nap instead. Hehe. oops. Oh yeah and i need some #@$%ing money. (I'm trying not to swear at least with the really bad words). Oh and on a more shallow note I want to find a good self tanner because I'm so pale its gross.
GOTTA RUN on over to spanish class.
LEAVE ME A MESSAGE CUZ I LIKE THEM!
:)
Kelly

Alpha Z

2004-09-27T01:47:31Z

I'm spending the night at the sorority house again. I'm really starting to like it more than I thought I would. We had a retreat today which was cool and then this like grill out thing with a whole bunch of different sororities and fraternities. Good stuff. The only thing that sorta sucked was the new member meeting cuz it was too long. I have so much reading to catch up on but I am so preoccupied with other things. I'm really pissed off about Kelly. It takes up so much of my free time thinking about what to do about the whole situation. I think I've done as much as a person can do. I've admitted my wrong doings and my flaws, apologized and tried to make things better. I'm not the kind of person to just let things no people go. At least when I am aware of the situation. UUH the whole thing is incredibly frusterating in more ways than I can even explain. Anyways, I have so much homework to do. So I'm really gonna go try to do it.
Leave me a message.
KELLY

To Do

2004-09-23T23:33:55Z

I think I might see a psychologist again. I'm not like depressed I just have some really wierd feelings about my life right now. Like I don't know what the hell I'm doing and whatever I am doing I don't know if its right for me. I really miss Vella. Its wierd how things are between us now like we used to be eachothers lives. Maybe it was just a shallow relationship, but at the time it seemed like one of the deepest friendships i've ever been in. Just thinking about it makes me really mad. I don't know how someone can be so busy that they never have time to call. I know that her reason isn't her busy schedule its an issue of being scared. I know that I messed up but it had a lot to do with what was going on at the time and uh I don't know. I just wonder if things could ever be good with us again. I just miss having someone to confide in all the time, and staying up until ike 4 in the morning on a school night just talking about life when we're supposed to be studying. This is quite possibly the best relationship I've ever lost (besides richard probably). Then agian Kim and I have gone through shitloads of stuff and we're still friends, probably better after all that shit than ever.
Anyways, I have been sorta studying for this comm test I have tomorrow but I just hate studying for stuff I feel like I'll forget it anyways. This comm class seems really easy on the surface so maybe the test won't be that bad. Plus its only like 10 percent of my grade or something so even if i got a C it wouldn't be impossible to bring up the overall grade.
On the money front, I am handing in some applications. I really dont' want to work. But then again maybe it would be fun.

I fucking love Ani Difranco and Sarah Jessica Parker. They are like the definition of modern feminism in completely different ways. Wouldnt' that be cool if they were combined into one person. Man I wish I was Sarah Jessica Difranco. Hehe.

Alright. I'm really gonna study so I can watch will and grace tonight. T.V. is evil.

Peace.
Me

Job searching, sorority, school ...

2004-09-22T20:36:38Z

Dear everyone who reads this,
I just had bid night at my new sorority last night. It is called Alpha Xi Delta. It wasn't my first choice but so far all the girls seem cool and down to earth. Its like not the typical sorority its sorta hard to explain. Anyways it seems good and maybe if I feel I'm part of something on campus I'll start to do better here, emotionally I mean. My job search is sort of a joke I have one application for a coffee house and I am handing it into today. My references are lauren and kayla. Hehe. They said to list people from previous jobs so I figure that works. Plus they can't say anything bad about me or I'd kill them. As for school I was really disappointed about a quiz that I got a C on in poly sci. I got the essay question right and at first he gave me a B and then he crossed it out and put a C. WTF? I didn't deserve that I did the reading and answered the question correctly. Also I have a test on Friday in Comm. I'm scared to get my spanish test back because I suck at spanish I almsot want to drop it but I want to be able to study abroad in a spanish speaking country. This is bull-roar. I called D (Danyale Hegwood) she is going to New Zealand for two months. It made my life seem really plain. Almost empty. I'm at a really wierd point in my life socially and emotionally. I'm not sure how to handle it all...
I'm out cuz I have el clase de espanol which can kiss me asse.
Kelly

Oh yeah!

2004-09-21T17:33:09Z

I forgot does anyone know how to change the look of your live journal. I'm sorta sick of the Jcrew look I want something more fun. Tell me if you know please.

Purdue and what not

2004-09-21T17:32:21Z

I am looking for a job and currently it is not going well. I have less than fifty dollars in the bank, and an electric and cable bill coming in a couple days that will be more than fifty dollars. I don't know what to do. I don't wanna ask my mom for money. I'm so irresponsible with my money. Does anyone have any ideas about how to be better with money? How do you keep a budget. I honestly don't know how I always just ask my parents when I'm out and its horrible. I'm so spoiled :( It isn't my parents fault though its mine. Anyways I am now in a sorority or pledging one anyways. I'm sure I'll find some people to be tight with. Expanding one's social circle is definately not a bad thing. The house that we have is really nice too. It looks like Snow Whites hosue on the outside. I'll live there next year if I decide to stay here at Purdue. The cool thing is that the house is actually less expensive than the dorms and way nicer. Who knew? I have bid night tonight I don't know what going to happen I hope its not like wierd. Well I'm gonna go do homework or attempt to anyways.

I wonder

2004-09-18T01:44:51Z

I think that maybe I need to become more politically umm. caring. Is that the right word? I don't know I just don't really care about politics right now. I think America has a lot of stuff wrong with it but I also think we're a pretty decent country. Bush and Kerry both suck so I dunno what I'm gonna do about that whole situation. I mean I have to vote because if I don't then I'm just another ignorant teenage (young voter) statistic that didn't vote. Grrr...... This is bugging my mind. Anyways. I'm back at Purdue so far it has been pretty uneventful. If things don't get better I want to transfer to a different school next year. Kelly (Vella) and I are in some sort of rut and I'm trying to fix it but shes not really into trying to make things better. I don't know what else I can do but call her and email her. At any rate hopefully this weekend will prove to be worthwhile. Peace!
Kelly

Summer 2004

2004-07-02T08:21:46Z

It is now offically the third month of my summer. It has been uneventful I haven't even been drunk once. I have had fucked up feelings towards so many things. Starting with my relationships. The only people I have hung out with are Kim and Natalie and these things are going great. I love Kim she is the most consistent relationship I have right now. She just hasn't given up on me, we went to bonnaroo and had an awesome time. On the other hand all my other relationships are shit and its partially my fault. I'll start with Kayla. What the fuck? She is supposed to be my best friend I feel like she takes me for granted and I also might take her for granted. I haven't seen Kayla once. I feel like when Kayla is in a relationship she gives a shit about nothing else. Maybe thats not fair to say but I'm saying it and she'll probably read this and hopefully have something to say. I guess I'm just pissed because we haven't seen eachother NOT ONCE! I know I"m in River Hills but I'm sorry its not like its long distance and p.s. she hasn't called ME Once. bullshit. Moving on Giancarlo and I are at a low point he calls but I rarely call back. I'm a fucking hermit, either working or sitting around. I called him tonight in a frenzy about how we need to salvage our relationship. I haven't seen Lauren and although Lauren is a different sort of relationship and when we do hang out it is in spurts nonetheless I would love to see the girl. She also hasn't call me. NOT ONCE. Then there is Nora. I don't know what happened with us. I have no idea what is going on in her life. I saw her once and that is only because I bumped into her at the movies. I miss the girl and I'm sick of everyone else influencing my opinion about her (Kayla, Jessica, Kim etc.) I like the fukcing girl she has been there for me through so much shit. I'm calling her tomorrow. And also our relationship is not superficial it has substance so fuck everyone who judges that. Then of course there is Richard as much as I try to void him out I jsut feel like there has never been any real closure. I don't iknow what to do he wont' talk to me, call me, pick up my phone calls. I jsut want to see him once and talk to him and finally shut that fucking door or maybe open a new one with him! Is that so much to fucking ask? I'm confused about that. I don't know what to do. Its been a fucking year! Ridiculous maybe I"m just pathathic. This has been a crazy night. My summer is going in a different direction from this piont on and now i'm going to take a cold bath and then I'm going to bed. Tomorrow will be outta control. I'm going to stay at my dads for the rest of the summer. Much love.
Peace
Mallegni

restin' my bones.

2004-01-13T05:55:13Z

Okay so I don't recall all of my new year's resolutions but I have had 2 cigarettes and a clove since january first. I think I am doing quite well. Also, I needed to get off my lazy ass and work out cuz I could feel those pants getting a lil' tighter. I was so proud cuz I went running today. Damn I'm good.

Classes started today but I only went to one of four. I'm switching some around.

I have troubles sleeping @ night. During the day, I can sleep so much but when the night time rolls around I'm ready to be up. I try reading, t.v., just laying there but it really just doesn't work. grrr... I'm doomed for a life of insomnia.

My good friend Stephanie Jones birthday is tomorrow. I never thought of this until now but Stephanie Jones is like Samantha Jones on Sex and the City, but only because they have the same last name. Yes this just proves that I had way to much time to watch sex and the city over the break. I should have gotten out more, but whatever.

I have class @ 10:30 2morrow morning, why does that seem so early?

Peace, love, and sunshine ppl
Peace, love, and sunshine,
Kelly

Milwaukee

2003-12-31T02:15:05Z

Tomorrow is New Year's Eve. It's amazing how fast time goes by. Holy Shit 2004! I'm gonna be 19 in two months. I need to print out those new Year's Resolutions. The number one is to quit smoking. Seriously, its just yucky. I hope Jessica and Kayla come see my @ Purdue.

Until tomorrow.
Kelly

So far...

2003-12-23T11:15:45Z

Okay so I am finally back in Milwaukee and my mom's currently. It must be known that I am notcurnal and people in general in milwaukee go to bed way to early for my taste. Early as in I don't go to bed typically until five or six at night and then just sleep until like nine or ten. Thats when I'm prepared to go out or whatever. I'm trying to reverse my sleeping schedule and its really just not working @ all.

So I made this massive discovery which deterred me from leaving my mom's house for the last like 12 hours. Oh yeah we have HBO ON DEMAND! Therefore, I watched all, yes I repeat ALL of season six of sex and the city. Oh how sweet it was. The costume design was to die for.

Casey just called. I dont really know what he was talking about, he asked if I was coming to chicago but then I was like ummmmmmmm........... when the fuck am I gonna have time to do that? Seriously? Ya know? We'll see.

I need to see Richard before he is officially sworn out. Oh goodness.

Sorry if I haven't returned some people phone calls, honestly I've been really lazy and when I'm not being lazy I'm doing something thats supposedly incredibly important. Hopefully I'll get to see everyone I want to.

Much Love People,
I think I'm gonna try to sleep now
if thats possible.

KELLY

I have lost my identity

2003-12-20T17:07:13Z

Damn it! I lost my Purdue I.D. and I feel like a zombie. Its probably because of my decision to get 2 hours of sleep since yesterday and today. Seriously I am going to fucking dominate this final. Even though I feel right now that I might die, I'm gonna dominate. Ask me anything about this bullshit and I'll tell you whats up. I might have a massively long delayed response but the answer would still be right. Next semester there will be no more messing around. I will not stay extra days in ordre to take finals so I can get a better grade in the class. I will automatically do well enough where I won't have to do that. God, all I want to do is sleep. One more hour until this final. ONE MORE! one measly little hour. 60 mult. choice and 5 essays and I'm out of here. I'm so prepared for a vacation full of sleep and lots of gifts under the tree.

Shit, What should I do to pass this time?
If I study anymore I think I will wipe out anything I've studied.

GRRRR...
give me my test.
NOW!
Kelly

Outkast- Happy Valentines Day

2003-12-20T03:55:23Z

Man I'm scared for this final tomorrow. Its not that I don't know the information its just that I tense up real bad when I know i have to do well at something. I think if I wasn't tense about this it'd be a lot easier.

I'm a lil' scared to go back to Milwaukee, in fact I don't know how much time I actually want to spend there. Giancarlo has invited me to Detroit. Eh, bad idea. Remember what happened last time I did that? Casey is a great man. I don't know if my actions towards him are always so great. Yet his aren't always great either. In a relationship, if things are great all the time, it just gets boring and somebody will end up getting hurt real quick. At least with this situation I can just get hurt a little bit at a time, rather than one big blow to the ol' heart.

Okay thinking positively now. I can't believe its almost another Brand New Year.
MY NEW YEAR'S RESOLUTIONS ARE:
1) to kick the nastiest habit I have developed in my adolescence. Smoking cigarettes. No more excuses, not even if I'm drunk, because once I have a pack I just keep thinking of excuses. I will do this! I will!
2) No more breaking men, just because I can. I have to start dealing with my painful man experiences in more mature ways.
3) Have a good fucking time, but do well. The more I wallow in my own fake misery the more I find that it isn't worth it. So I'm gonna take some lessons learned and not be so god damn stubborn. I have one fucking life and god damn it I'm going to live it. The things I've noticed lately is that as much as I have been living I have also slowly been killing myself in the process. Eh hell, we're all gonna die anyway.
4) LET GO OF OLD NUISANCES! Richard Ryan Galling consider yourself deleted from my hard drive after the January 1st 2004!

This new year is going to kick some serious fucking ass. More ass than I've had in the last week. And honestly thats A LOT OF ass. hehe.

Until Next Time,
PEACE

1:19 on a Wednesday

2003-12-03T18:22:50Z

Hello Hello,
Ahhhhhhh live journal makes me feel at home. So I was going to go to South Korea this summer in order to study abroad with my roommate BUT then I decided wait a minute........ I'm going to Italy for Spring Break I'd only be HOME for like 2 months. Inappropriate I need my miltown time PLUS i need a job, and I wanna live with my brother (at one of my dad's duplexes), and also I need to get my ART portfolio up and running again ON THE REAL. Laziness will not be an option this summer. NO LIE! hehe. If kayla doesn't come home it could be a rather depressing summer, Yet if she is in Roma, at least I can imagine I'm there with her. All is well at PUrdue except I think I'm coming down with a case of the Obsessive Compulsive FUCK Finals are almost here DISORDER...
Take Paxil,
Endulge in ALchololic beverages,
and remember
my name is KELLY Mallegni
Undergrad Student at Purdue U.

SMOOCHES!
p.s. its national WEAR PINK DAY!
www.urbanoutfitters.com (get me something for christmas!)

Indiana University etc.

2003-11-24T06:10:25Z

This weekend Kelly, Casey and I went to Indiana University. The fraternity that Casey is in has a chapter at IU and it was really interesting. The house was huge and new but the guys weren't nearly as tight as the guys at Casey's. At any rate, we got drunk went to a couple of parties and then passed out. Hehe then we gandered on back to Purdue on Saturday een though Purdue was playing Indiana (we knew we would beat them). Sleep was enjoyed by all in Caseys oasis UNTIL we needed a box of wine, cigarettes, some green, and a lil loving. It was good stuff UNTIL we put on Fear and Loathing! Hehe. Good stuff. Today has been yet another wonderful day. The Spice Girls behind the scenes is on and THE fabulous life of David and Posh spice. WOW! Beckham is hot oh oh oh baby. I want to be them !!!!!!!!!! I read a whole bunch of political science and stuff. Oh also I must promote the watching of Family Guy DVD's because Family Guy is the best.

Ah Dior.....

2003-11-09T20:25:32Z

"Which fashion designer are you?" - Results: Dior. A party animal, you adore excitement. You are outgoing and gorgeous. A total glamazon, guys love your sexy short skirts and low-cut-but-ever-so-fashionable tops. You like to play with men. Being in a long-term relationship just doesn't fit your party-til-the-break-of-dawn mantra. You love being a girl and take full advantage of your power over men.

Almost Famous

2003-11-09T20:15:41Z

Ah how Purdue is a twister... a lil rollercoaster. An oasis of so much oppurtunity so much wealth!

"You're more important than all the silly machinery"
-Almost Famous

I wish I could be Penny Lane !!Her coat reminds me of the turkish whore coat that Kim had in like eight grade. "Men want to have her and women want to be her!"

Last night was one crazy night as usual. Sir Casey Fassel is a great man. We watched girls gone wild. Okay I didn't know that girls gone wild is like hardcore porn! GROSS! I thought it was just boobs. Oh no no no! ALERT: you see girls masturbate! Didn't snoop produce all the girls gone wild's?

I talked to Nora. She is well. I miss her. Her and Tom are the epitemy of a great relationship, at least in my opinion.

My roommate is amazing. She is a buddhist from South Korea. Sometimes we meditate. Do Windsor Pilates. I'm dagney- the one in the background who is really out of shape and can't get her legs up all the way! hehe.

Okay so I slept like two hours I really should nap.

Peace man!
Stinker.

Purdue Update 2004

2003-11-05T19:38:57Z

Whoa so it is feels like forever since I logged on here and typed an entry. Basically this is just an informational entry but I think I may start updating once again. First of all my new email address to all of those who don't know is kmallegn@purdue.edu. Purdue has been nonstop action since I arrived. Action in the areas of school, guys, SCHOOL, SCHOOL, friends, clubs, and more school. Man I knew college wasn't going to be breezy but I didn't know it was like homework ALL THE TIME. I wish I could go back to high school for a day where I could give bullshit excuses when I didn't have my work done.
On the guy front. There is still that guy Casey (smile). We've had our issues and of course still do. He thinks I'm not OVER richard but whatever its bullshit. I don't even want to get into that whole situation. In between Casey and Richard there have been a couple other flings nothing THAT serious and of course nothing COMPLETELY casual!
I'm tired though. I'm going to retrive to my orange/blue oasis of sleep for awhile and then wake up and get two reports and some reading done.

I miss all of those who still frequently check this thing.
I wonder how Miltown is..

LATA!

Math

2003-09-03T13:07:28Z

I hate math I wish it would disappear off the face of the earth and science too. They are only good for recreational reading other than that they are no good. Why is it that I can comprehend quantum physics when I read about it but when it comes to factoring a god damn polynomial I'm like a retard. Every year I propose to work really hard at math and do well well every year I work hard but do shitty. Grr. Sorry I just had to vent I have math in a couple hours.
Everything here is good though. I might join a sorority next year, in fact I'm almost positive. I'm going to the greek callout tonight. Despite stereotypes and judgement I think that the basic concept of a sorority is a good one. I didn't know that sorority's have grade requirements, do volunteer work, and plan campus social events. Thats gotta be good to put on a resume.

Much love,
KELLY

First love

2003-09-02T06:08:38Z

Do you ever really get over a first love? Ever since I've arrived at Purdue I wonder if Richard really was my first love. Or was it just my first real relationship? How can a person tell the difference. I've met a guy, his name is Casey who knows if whatever is going on will last. What is going on so far is great. I hate defining relationships it just turns everything into a big mess. I wonder how Peter is.

I had six hours of homework today. Happy labor day to me.

Kelly

Empty

2003-08-29T22:22:33Z

Once school start livejournal really slows down I've noticed. I'm tired.

Kelly